I just turned on the news to see what is going on in the world. And I turned it right back off a few minutes later.
Is it bad that I don't want to hear or think about the disaster in Haiti right now? Does it make me less human if I don't want to hear about suffering? Or that I wish I hadn't heard about the two-year-old that was found alive in a pile of rubble next to her dead mother yesterday? (She looked too much like my two-year-old.)
I've been in my own little world for the past two weeks. And I like it. I like it that my biggest worries are that Leah is having enough wet diapers a day, or that her cord is clean and dry, or that Lainy still feels loved and secure. I like spending my time staring into my baby's eyes and trying to decide if they're brown or blue. I like listening to my sweet two-year-old chatter about anything and everything. I like thinking about the wonderful people who have brought us meals and offered to take Lainy for walks. I like that my biggest problem yesterday was that I didn't have time to shower.
I'm grateful for my peaceful world. Even if it doesn't extend beyond the walls of my home. I know there is great suffering out there. I just don't want to think about it yet. And I think that's okay. Because it makes me more grateful for what I have. And I know I'll have to re-enter the world someday. But I'm happy to stay right here as long as I can.
6 comments:
I loved your post, and you don't have to ever completely re-enter the world. I've been keeping the news off lately too. I feel guilty, and its not that I don't feel awful about everything going on, but I like to focus on the happy blessings I have instead of becoming enthralled with the problems of the world. I was glad to hear I'm not the only one, although I don't have a brand new baby to distract me. By the way, that picture is absolutely adorable!
I don't blame you one bit for not wanting to see all of the devastation going on. I can't stand it either because I feel like there is nothing I can do. Just enjoy your little heaven on earth for now, they grow up way too fast.
I love the picture of your girls, how precious!
That picture is about the most precious thing I have EVER seen. My heart just melted! What beautiful, darling, wonderful, blessed girls. And...I think that your little world is a wonderful place to stay...I'd stay there as long as I could if I was in your place! Enjoy those cute girls and give them lots of loves from all of us!!!
wow Trac I love reading your blogs! you have such a talent of writing! Enjoy this stage while it lasts- your little girls are beautiful! We couldn't be more happy for you and Brad.
It's SO ok to focus on your family right now- the most important things you can influence in the world right now are in your home. I love your girls! Can't wait to spend more time with them!!
Trace, thanks for continually being an inspiration to us all, and helping us keep perspective on things and be grateful. As others have said as well, such a precious picture, and it captures Lainy's excitement but gentleness with her wonderful sister. Thanks for sharing!
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